This post is mudane, in the most literal sense of the word, but it is still important.
Earlier this week I applied to a Graphic Designer / Illustrator job that I actually qualified for. And to do this, I completed the portfolio that I had worked on fitfully for over three years. Doesn't sound like much? Well, I spent those years mired in self-doubt, depression, and insecurity about my skills. It was awful; I was pathetic. The job opening provided the impetus I needed to make the final push and finish the thing. Now I feel...cleaner, in my soul. I finally overcame my (largely self-imposed) restrictions. Hopefully this marks a new chapter in my life, one where I am not so afraid to do what I'm good at.
Congratulations, done quickly or slowly and completed by whatever motivation your portfolio is complete and YOU did it! I often struggle with fear of doing what I can (but am afraid to) do. Thanks for telling this.
ReplyDeleteHopefully someday, sooner rather than later, you can overcome your fears too.
DeleteFinally =D
ReplyDeleteHonestly, I'm embarrassed that it took so long...
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